not feeling good

[BlueBay]

Thankyou so much @Faith-and-Hope i can see what you mean. One of the inpatient in hospital did a collage and it was fantastic. Maybe I could start small. Thankyou you have given me something to think about. ❤️❤️

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hugs @BlueBay .... 💙

[BlueBay]

My anxiety and emotions negative are high I csnt think I don’t want to think snymire it’s too hard 

I hate everything’s thst happens. To me. I can’t stop these visions they’ll haunt me forever 

I won’t ti scream hit kick punch 

I want yo sh niw 

there’s no point stopping 

it never gets better or easier I am hurting tonight 

I am in bed and I’m now crying sngry hate 

I need to get away I’m suffocating there’s too much triggering I need to stop those visions 

it’s hurting 😥

I’m sorry to everyone. I just need to stop

@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7 I don’t know who to tag I’m sorry 😥 

[Zoe7]

Can you try to sleep early tonight @BlueBay?

[BlueBay]

I’m sorry @Zoe7 i haven’t supported you in your post. I’m happy to read about your job. So happy for you ❤️❤️

Im trying to but when I close my eyes the flashbacks come. 

I want sll this to go away. Disappear. 

Need to go xx

[Zoe7]

I hope the flashbacks stop for you and you can get some sleep @BlueBay 

[Faith-and-Hope]

💓💓 @BlueBay ....

[BlueBay]

Morning @Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7

it took a while to get to sleep after lots of crying. Woke up a few times think I’ll need an afternoon nap. 

Dont know what we’re doing today. Prob watch the race when it starts. Might even try a walk it might help my headache sbd backsche. Can’t turn very well. Seeing my Chiro Thursday morning. 

[Zoe7]

A walk sounds great for today @BlueBay - the fresh air and exercise will be really good for you. Pool day for me today so I will get in both a walk and some exercise in as well.

I didn't have such a good night either so I know how hard it is to face the day after a night like that - I am planning on doing things to keep busy and hoping to hear from HR early today. Until I hear back from them I can't plan the rest of the week - it all depends on when this meeting with the Principal is.

[BlueBay]

Hey @Zoe7

may not get a walk in tiday as it’s rsining heavily. 

I’m seeing a Santa sack for Ayla snd need to buy some rope. Might go to spotlight and get some. Also wanted to try to make a pair of little leggings for Ayla for summer. Not sure I csn do it but I’ll try. 

Pool sounds nice @Zoe7 its always relaxing to be in with water. I love it. 

Fingers crossed that you hear from HR this morning. 🙏

chat a bit later xx