I am struggling at the moment

[Snowie]

@Teej you are never far from my thoughts. Hoping today gets a little better for you.

Lots of love and hugs 💜💜💜

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜🌷💞 @Teej .....

[Appleblossom]

@Teej 

Hugs

I wrote a longer post but somehow authentication failed. Prob cos I was interrupted by student .flat out ...  gotta go to choir now.

Talk later

[roses]

It's been 5 years nearly since I joined this site and I only made one comment then. I was struggling and yes a lot of the time I do feel numb. I describe it to myself as living in automatic pilot. Last summer I ended up in hospital for a month, but once I got back home I felt like I was getting back to my old self. While the Covid lockdown was stressful it did end up making me rest and not overdo things. I have been reading some of the posts and replies. It does help to hear other people's stories. I used to feel like not a lot of other people had been through traumatic lives but I realise that that's wrong, so I send my love and encouragement to all who have led difficult lives❤️😊🌺

[Shaz51]

Sending you lots of hugs and sitting with you my friend xxx @roses 

Hello and hugs @Appleblossom , @Teej , @Faith-and-Hope , @Snowie 

[Forest_Fairy]

Hi @roses 

Welcome back to the SANE forums, we are glad you have made your way back!

Hoping you find the forums useful and supportive like so many others do. 

Please look around at some of the different threads and as you feel comfortable to do so reach out to others for support and advice as that is what we are all here for 🙂

Take care,

Forest_Fairy 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Forest_Fairy  ❤☕

I will tag @roses to see your message above xx

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💞🌷 @Teej  .... missing you Hon.

Hi from me too @roses 👋

[Teej]

Hi @roses . I'm glad you found your way back 💜. It does bring a sense of connection to know that lots of people experience some similar things. It has been through here that I learned so much about life and that I was not alone. My experiences may not be the exactly same as others but comfort and support with the feelings and thoughts that bought me to the SANE forum is life saving (often literally in the past).

im so sorry @Sans911 , for not getting back here to respond earlier. I've had it on my to do list everyday but couldn't find the words to reply here. I wanted you to know that there were some things that really struck a cord with me from that night and for the last week. I haven't completely formed words or thoughts but it has to do with your comments about who I was hurting by sh. I've had lots of confused and conflicted thoughts and feelings about it all, but I think it has been really helpful to have tried to work through some of it. Last Friday I sent a letter to my psych with some of my thoughts. I will find out on Wednesday how the letter was received. I just wanted to thank you for being here and helping get through a really tough night but also that you were a catalyst for some deep reflecting. I'm not through it all yet but I'm much more aware of how things are impacting me, which brings some calmer waters too.

leaving this ⬆️ here for @Faith-and-Hope , @Appleblossom , @Snowie as well. At some point I'd like to write some stuff on my recovery thread. Even though I'm not feeling the recovery part currently I know that I've made steps forward and backward and sideways (I think I've hopped, twisted and staggered too 😳). 
thanks all for being you 💜😘

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Teej ,,,,, 💞