Changing meds

[Zoe7]

I hear you about your little puppy @WIP I was the same with Tobes when I was at my lowest - I thought he would be better off with my sister but they become so attached to us as we do to them that they do not care that we are not well nor that they do not get walked every day. The most important thing for you both is the love between you. I know it feels insummountable at the moment and that your little boy would be better off with your Mum but keeping your little boy gives you a reason to get up each day and that is so important. I also wanted to give away the thing that got me up each day and kept me alive ...I had given up and could not see any way forward at all ...but I did get through it and could not imagine my life without my fur babies. I am not going to day this is easy (far from it) but there is a way forward ...hang in there with the meds Hon - you have seen some slight improvements but they do take time. Keep giving your baby cuddles and feel his love in return - it matters, you matter and you can get through this. I will keep telling you this as I know how hard it is to believe ourselves. I will also keep holding onto that hope for you ...if I could get through what I endured then I know you can too.... 

[WIP]

@Zoe7 @Jynx @Shine32 @eth

@BPDSurvivor @MDT

Hi All,

I had a pretty traumatic day on Monday where my Mum called the police in the morning because she missed a text from me checking in.

Next thing I know I've got a super aggressive officer barging in my front door, saying I am

under his apprehension under s531 of the Mental Act. Even though I was calm & not showing any signs of harming myself.  Mum arrived at the ambulance did, he wouldn't listen to us both saying there had been a misunderstanding & it should have just been a welfare check.

if changing meds hasn't been difficult enough, this traumatic experience & being called 'a potential burden on society', I'm struggling even more.

Ive said before I have no network support, so am reaching out guys for some hope that things are going to get better.

is there a good trick to search forums easier, to read success stories etc.  I'm sorry to sound like a burden, and apologise if this isn't the correct format to reach out for some help, I'm just lost. So tired - psycially & mentally. I don't know how to turn down the noises in my head.

TIA for your time in reading this. 

[Jupiter]

Hey @WIP thanks for sharing this here 

I can hear that sense of feeling like a burden is strong, particularly after your really horrible experience on Monday. I'm truly sorry that happened to you and has left you feeling worse  You are certainly not a burden here and we are all here to stand beside you and support you on the forums. 

It sounds like you're still reaching out and searching for a little bit of hope, despite feeling physically and mentally exhausted. That takes a lot of strength

One positive thread you might be interested in is Daily goals, motivation and check in

I'll let others jump in with some more thread ideas!

[MDT]

Hi @WIP

Sometimes the police don't know anything. They see the words "medication" and just assume you'd be difficult.

If i ever told police I was on meds for mental health they may be shocked. But i guess that's how it goes when they are not always trained well.

You are not a burden either.

Perfectly good question.
That thread is a good one please feel free to make one or contribute to yours here as well.

Nice to hear from you and domt let this episode knock you too far off your perch my friend

[WIP]

Thanks @MDT 

I'm trying not to let Monday's episode get to me, but it's really knocked me around. I didn't have too far off my perch to fall to begin with. 

[MDT]

Hi @WIP

Right there with you in that regard

I am struggling too

[MDT]

@outlander @Shaz51 @TAB @Bunniekins @BlueBay @Meowmy  @Appleblossom @frog @eth @Angels333 @Faith-and-Hope 
@Ant7 @Adge  @Owlunar @Molliex @Jacques @Former-Member @Former-Member

Quit a consistent, 3 day a week role that has been a cause of anxiety and depression for me and instead work sporadically doing something I can be passionate about but at a far far less pay rate.

Or

Keep my current 3 day a week job and put up with it for longer despite the fact I can not find a singleredeeming quality in it whatsoever?

I took my current job at a time when I was desperate. But now this may no longer sustain me.

I am lost.

[MDT]

Sorry @WIP
I Posted here in mistake. I will request it moved to my own thread.

Sorry about that

[WIP]

No problem.
I didn’t realise you’d made an error.
Hope you are ok

[Zoe7]

Not a burden at all @WIP This is what we are here for Hon - to support, encourge, listen and help as much as we can. Going through that would have been extremely difficult. Unfortunately there is still a massive disconnect between what is needed, what can help and the attitudes and behaviours of many answering such a call. There are still many that do not get empathy and understanding are neccesary to help those in need - and it being a misunderstanding does not enter into their single minded and narrow views of how to deal with mental illness ...so sorry that happened to you Hon  

Having the police turn up on your doorstep - and barge in - is traumatic in itself so you do not have to 'get over' it nor do you have to suppress your anxiety around what happened. You will need time for this all to settle so give yourself that time.

Very much hearing you and sitting with you Hon.