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@KurraI understand what you say, but I think there is a difference between total embodiment and immersion and pleasure and "meaning of life" other experiences. Dont take my comments about music out of context. As a music and choral educator I believe music has great power to heal and that will never change, but I was damaged physically and emotionally by a mother who was musically FAR more musically ambitious than I. My childhood dreams were more about writing and science. Part of neck issue {15 years extreme agony) was due to her continual digs telling me I did not practise enough whilst an adult and parenting. At the time I did not have the wherewithall to reply or even put her comments in context. I was being pushed and bumped around left right and centre. In many ways I was the good girl and did a lot of music for mother. But mother was PSz and it was taken a few years after her death to get better hindsight. She cared always about her own music more than my dead brother or sister or me.
I am much more interested in choral music and experience than she was. Her piano and her singing was always more important. To the point that I was a bit slow in realising I was always in supportive accompanist role, but NOT supported in music roles or honestly in my life (and spent too much energy and life caring for my siblings). She also used music in what came to be dreadfully destructive power and attention seeking games. I was too trusting even til my 40s. In last year when we did recorder and piano, I was more wary.
Now that you have retired you will be able to pursue more music. @Kurra It is wonderful, but ego and pretention can cause great problems wrt to family dynamics, sweeping truths under the carpet, and mental illness and suicide. Anyway that is my experience. It is best if it is not a very common occurrence. Maybe you did not have things like that complicating your experience of music so it was a simpler matter for you.
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Thank you @Catcakes It took a lot of work and pain to be able to write a post like that. Now I am off to the zoo and chamber choir tonight.
I have been so privileged to spend a lot of last 2 years with the community vallues on the this forum.
Pity about the me me me types. We understand why it happens, but I still pity that so much of society is wrapped up in that attitude. On the other hand I have been told Grief is a very selfish emotion....
Take care ALL
Not tagging more as I do not want to leave anyone out.
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Wow @Catcakes
You can be proud of kids working in that field.
Could be compromising of anonymity for me???
Might be walking past you in the street! That is the problem with extraversion. Gotta go bak to being an introvert.
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