not feeling good

[Zoe7]

Pebbles is the big one for me as you can probably imagine as I am sure you are in a similar boat with the wonderful support she has given us both over our time on here. I am also still not over Nik leaving this one has hit even harder and there have been a couple of losses irl lately so it all adds up. This last month is never a good one for me anyway with anniversaries and the pain associated with those - so all in all it is no wonder I have crashed so badly this week.

Sorry to hear you are in such a dark place too @BlueBay - I know you are worried about money but money doesn't mean anything if you are struggling to survive - I know hoever that this is an issue for you that is adding to the pressures on you so it is a really hard one to navigate. Maybe hosital is going to be the only option though BB - we want you to be safe 

[BlueBay]

I don’t know anymore @Zoe7. I still haven’t got over Nik leaving either. That’s three in a short space of time.  

Part of me thinks hospital may hrlp but the stress of money is on the high list of stress and my dilemma. I’m stuck I really am. My hubby will hit the roof if I went to hospital. I can’t desl with his sngry as well. 

[Zoe7]

How did the appointment with your GP go with your hubby there @BlueBay Did he get how hard this is for you or is he still not getting it?

[BlueBay]

@Zoe7 We went in and the female doctor said let’s try to work out a plan for me. Hubby says that he never knows when I’m upset or good and wants me to ring him at work when I’m crisis. My doctor suggested that he touch base with me daily to check in. To date he hasn’t done that. Doctor suggested staying busy together in weekends like coffee down the street or a drive which we do. 

So not mych else. Hubby is blocking it out because he doesn’t want to know how to deal with it snd he prob doesn’t know how. But my doctor said to him to call get any time if he has any questions or concerns. He won’t do that. 

[Zoe7]

So he really has no idea how ill you are because he is blocking it all out @BlueBay That is incredibly tough to deal with yourself - you need support from him but he is nit able to provide that because he does not recognise the severity of what you are dealing with.

Maybe hospital isn't such a bad idea then - to give him that further jolt to show him how unwell you are ...and to give you a little respite in all this too.

[BlueBay]

You’d think he would have got it by now @Zoe7. Last year I was in hospital 3 times. How many times do I need to go in. 

I think my own doctor may need to chat with him on there own without me. 

Thsts why I can’t do this on my own. 

I just want him to take over everything. I can’t do it anymore. When I see my doctor on Monday I’m going to tell him everything again. 

[Zoe7]

That sounds like a good idea @BlueBay and if he suggests hospital then say yes but only if he explains all of it to your husband and sees that he gets how unwell you are.

[Former-Member]

@BlueBay @Zoe7

So sorry you're both struggling.  Its hard isnt it?  You both have my admiration for how you've coped to date, as well as my ongoing support and encouragement for how you continue to press on despite the many difficulties you encounter on a daily basis.  Love and kind thoughts to the pair of you.

Sherry 

[Zoe7]

The feeling is mutual @Former-Member - so much admiration for what you are dealing with and how you are coping depsite insummountable obstacles - so blessed to have such wonderful people here to help us through these tough times too 

[BlueBay]

Thankyou @Former-Member ❤️❤️