not feeling good

[Iris]

Hi @BlueBay this is Iris here (moderator) I have also tried to send you an email but there is no email address for me to reply to, I will make a note re technical difficulties. In the mean time are you able to contact one of the following support services if things become too overwhelming? Management and safety plan for BlueBay - SANE Forums

You can also contact one of the services listed below to speak confidentially with a trained counsellor:
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

[#2]

You can also contact one of the services listed below to speak confidentially with a trained counsellor:
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

[BlueBay]

@Iris There’s always been an email address. I don’t understand why now it’s didappeared. 

[Shaz51]

@BlueBay 

[Iris]

@BlueBay, I dont know what has happened, hopefully someone who has technical nouse will be able to fix this later. In the mean time apologies for the mixup. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @BlueBay

Sorry for the tech difficulties - it is all now fixed. 

It is important that if you are feeling unsafe to reach out to the mentioned support services:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

I have sent you an email.

[BlueBay]

Does anyone ever get to a point  in life where they think - why bother? 

I’m such in a dark place right now. I spoke to my doctor. Seeing him tomorrow morning. But can ring him this arvo to check in agsin. Sometimes I don’t know why ?

my mum isn’t coming tomorrow she’s coming in two weeks time. Great more time fir me to stsy snxious snd stress. 

I don’t care anything anymore 

hate work 

want to stay home cocoon myself in a blanket and hide away from the world 

ehy is depression so damn hard 

I’m done eith crying all the time 

this is stupid wasting people’s time

@Former-Member why does depression take you to horrible dark negative places 

I try every day but I go up snd down snd lately it’s a lot down. 

I’m sorry 

[Faith-and-Hope]

  .... it can be so disheartening to keep trudging through those dark places @BlueBay, but it is the way forward, to get to the other side.  It's in these times that it is important to remember that all the therapy and support is a journey into healing ..... and the path on that journey can seem confusing and distressful, but you are in fact moving forward by continuing to move through it ....

Take courage Hon.  I have to go out shortly for an appointment, but I will look in on you across the day.

Hugs and hugs .....

[BlueBay]

@Faith-and-Hope I’m trying so hard to not get myself so upset but it’s hsrd. I try but I get let down again and again snd again. I don’t trust people. I feel sick with anxiety. A lot on my mind thinking this is the way I’ll be. Therapy helps with my trauma but I get angry a lot st the abusers. I find it hard to control my anger. I could flip anytime. I’m angry. I’m hurting so much. 

I need to go. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

These responses won't change overnight @BlueBay, but they will progressively, and in response to a variety of different treatments.  Some of it is talking things out.  Some of it is learning to distract, and redirect angry feelings.  That's not to say they are not valid, it's so they don't keep taking up our attention and keep us from experiencing new and better things in life, and to heal .....

That's why we need mental health professionals to help us, to teach us, to listen to us, and to walk with us when we have suffered through major traumas as you have.  There are a wide variety of mental health professionals dealing with different aspects of mental health, through a combination of their training and their experience as a therapist .... so it is important to gradually work out who can best support different stages of recovery and mental health management, depending on the condition or experiences we are challenged with in life.  

For some people, this is relatively minor ..... like going to your gp for minor illnesses and health issues.  For others it is major, like needing an operation or ongoing treatment of a chronic illness ..... and everything in between.  It's the same thing with mental health.   We are all in different places on the scale.

You will get there @BlueBay, slowly and steadily, but it's not easy at all .... it's very painful, but necessary ..... and we are here to walk along with you Hon.

Hugs and hugs for the way you are feeling today.  This is a really hard week for you to get through, but you are doing it.  We are holding your hand in our virtual world, and we will be with you tomorrow, and after tomorrow.  Just keep going Hon, it's how we get through things and to another space in our life.

  

[BlueBay]

Going yo bed to see if I can sleep

snger has taken over 

it’s all over me 

it’s intense 

I hate these intense feelings